Vanessa Bauer has spoken candidly about her ‘aggressive’ battle with an eating disorder after learning of Nikki Grahame’s tragic death from anorexia.
The Dancing on Ice star, 24, took to Instagram on Monday to share a series of lingerie-clad photos, telling followers: ‘I used to think I could never model lingerie for personal battles with my body confidence.’
Big Brother star Nikki lost her battle with anorexia on Friday and Vanessa told fans she hoped her post would help others realise ‘they are not alone.’
Candid: Vanessa Bauer, 24, has spoken candidly about her ‘aggressive’ battle with an eating disorder after seeing the ‘tragic news of a lost battle with an eating disorder’
Beautiful: She took to Instagram on Monday to share a series of lingerie-clad photos, telling fans: ‘I used to think I could never model lingerie for personal battles with my body confidence’
Alongside her inspiring message, the Dancing On Ice professional shared eight stunning photos of herself wearing different pieces from Rihanna’s lingerie line Savage X Fenty after learning to be comfortable in her skin.
Opening up in her caption, the brunette beauty highlighted that there ‘isn’t enough awareness around ED,’ adding: ‘They are not taken seriously enough.’
She wrote in full: ‘Sunday vibes and personal thoughts. I used to think I could never model lingerie for personal battles with my body confidence.
Tragic: Nikki Grahame lost her battle with anorexia on Friday. A statement said: ‘It is with immeasurable sadness that Nikki passed away in the early hours of Friday 9th April’ (pictured 2017)
‘If you’ve followed me for a while you may know about my past battle with an aggressive eating disorder as I opened up about this a while ago.
‘This was meant to be a different kind of post but Today I saw tragic news of a lost battle with an ED. It made me realise once again that there isn’t enough awareness around ED.
‘They are not taken seriously enough. And it costs lives… I suffered nearly a decade. It ultimately ended my competitive skating career.
‘And for the last couple of years I’ve been strong enough to openly speak and raise awareness in the hope to help people who are suffering too.
Wow: Alongside her inspiring message, the Dancing On Ice professional shared eight stunning photos of herself wearing different pieces from Rihanna’s lingerie line Savage X Fenty
Important: Vanessa told fans she hoped her post would help others realise ‘they are not alone and the vicious circle can be beaten’
‘To show them they are not alone and that the vicious circle can be beaten!! Despite these being lovely pictures by the amazing @nasibag , they represent so much more to me personally.’
She concluded: ‘You deserve to feel fierce, happy, confident and comfortable within yourself.’
It was announced by her friends over the weekend that Nikki had died aged 38 Friday morning, following a 30-year battle with anorexia.
A statement from Nikki’s representative shared on Saturday said: ‘It is with immeasurable sadness that Nikki Grahame passed away in the early hours of Friday 9th April 2021. Please respect the privacy of Nikki’s friends and family at this tragic and difficult time.’
Lovely: From a bright green bra and matching briefs to a beautiful floral two-piece, Vanessa looked radiant in the candid snaps
Honest: Opening up in her caption, the brunette beauty highlighted that there ‘isn’t enough awareness around ED,’ adding: ‘They are not taken seriously enough’
It is believed that the star was released from hospital in Devon a day before her tragic death.
Just last month Nikki’s pals had launched a fundraiser to try and gather funds for her to receive specialist treatment.
Vanessa discussed her battle with eating disorders and mental health for the first time in 2019.
Uploading a striking lingerie selfie of herself, she informed her legions of followers that she was constantly told she was fat growing up, which didn’t help her confidence as her skating career took off.
The sensational talent also admitted that hiding her struggles for four years led her into a deep depression, which subsequently prompted her skating coach to cut ties with her as they didn’t want anything to do with someone who was suffering with mental health issues.
Sad: Vanessa also revealed her own struggles with an eating disorder ended her professional skating career
Vanessa wrote: ‘If you are struggling SEEK HELP. Admitting, accepting and sharing are the first steps to recovery.’
She continued: ‘I posted this before but I’m reaching many more people now and it’s so important to spread the word ❗️Before I started shows I would have never thought I’d be comfortable in front of the camera in a bikini or much less in underwear!
‘Every day I was told I am too fat (which I wasn’t!) and it did nothing but making my confidence shrink into nothing!
Vanessa started by saying: ‘Sunday vibes and personal thoughts. I used to think I could never model lingerie for personal battles with my body confidence’
‘At 13, when my skating career started to take off, circumstances, comments and many voices made me fall into a combination of eating disorders. Completely ASHAMED and always wanting to be the best in everything I did, I hid my struggles – for 4 years ❗️
‘Appearing as the strong Vanessa nobody would have EVER thought of my mental health issues. 4 years later, I could not handle the pressure anymore. I fell into depressions on top of my eating disorders.
‘My coach found out about my MENTAL HEALTH SITUATION and didn’t want to have anything to do with the girl who ended up in psychological therapy !! It was the most devastating years of my life but I still managed to hide the whole situation from everybody around me.
‘I CONTINUED TO EXCEL at school and appeared STRONG until nobody was around. I had my therapist to vent and that was it.
‘I thought I FAILED and it was my very own fault that I got these mental health issues. I was embarrassed at myself and thought these years were a period I will always have to hide because it shows a WEAK SIDE of me.
‘I had to STOP SKATING. However, I only got worse without skating and that’s when I realised that figure skating is my biggest PASSION and love. ❤️⛸ I am now unbelievably proud of myself for how far I’ve come.
‘By myself and for myself I trained my way back into my passion. Being a pro figure skater travelling around the world DOING WHAT I LOVE became the best therapy! Things have turned up differently than I wanted but everything was for the better.
‘Skating gives me life and there is no happier place for me than ON STAGE PERFORMING❤️ I have fallen in love with taking care of my body and I’m still working on my mind!’
Brave: Vanessa opened up about her battle with eating disorders and mental health for the first time in 2019