Michelle Heaton has candidly opened up about her battles with alcohol and drug addiction and revealed she felt like the “worst” mum because of her struggles.
The former Liberty X star, 41, shares two children with her husband Hugh Hanley and admits that the hold her addictions had over her had a hugely negative affect on her family life.
The singer, who admits she was potentially days away from death before entering rehab, shared her guilt at not being able to give her kids the attention they craved.
Michelle, who was voted Celebrity Mum of the Year in 2014, told The Sun : “I felt like a bad mother — the worst.
“I’m so lucky I’ve got two beautiful children. They just want to see Mummy well and they want to have ‘fun Mummy’.
“They want me to play football with them, they want me to do their hair. It was those simple things that I wasn’t able to give them.”
And she said that her inability to perform simple tasks with the kids meant that Hugh often seemed like a single parent.
She confessed that while she never put daughter Faith, nine, and son AJ, seven, physically at risk, they did worry about their mum.
The star said her kids witnessed her being sick and often were left wondering why their mum was shouting.
And in the end, she admits friends such as Katie Price have played a huge part in helping to save her life.
Michelle had gone on to drink up to two bottles of wine and a bottle of vodka pretty much every day since 2018 while also taking cocaine.
She said that when cocaine was harder to get hold of during lockdown, vodka was her go-to substitute.
She admitted that she would look for the cheap deals and could mask her use as it didn’t smell as much and had fewer calories.
Michelle confessed that it was Katie and other showbiz pals that put the money forward for her to attend a four-week stint in rehab at The Priory.
She said that without her friends’ intervention she would have continued on her downward spiral.
“I never asked for help but they could see I needed it,” she added.
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