Love Island star Malin Andersson has shared a heartfelt tribute to her late baby daughter, Consy, who died after being for prematurely in 2018.
The 28-year-old reality star penned a heart breaking message dictated to her daughter – who she welcomed with former boyfriend Tom Kemp.
Tragically Consy died one month after being born after Malin gave birth several weeks early on 23 December 2018 with doctors at Great Ormond St Hospital caring for the baby.
Taking to Instagram on Wednesday, Malin shared a photo of her infant daughter who had been connected to machines as she fought for her life.
Malin poured out her heart, explaining how much she misses her daughter and how she continues to think of her every day.
She wrote: “Happy Birthday Baby Girl. Today – you would have been 2 years old. I always wonder how you would have been like.. and what you would have looked like.
“Would you have had the same crazy care-free personality as me? Would you have been obsessed with the moon and stars, and the love for cheese and olives.. and racing cars. I will never know.
“You see the pain of losing a child never truly gets easier, you kind of learn how to deal with the ongoing pain.
“The pain becomes part of who you are – an add on extension of your personality in a way. In the two years of losing Consy I can safely say I’ve come a long way.
“I’ve seen things in HD – pure clarity and I’ve evolved in ways I never thought were possible.
“I’ve used the suffering I endured to keep me spurring on.. making sure my little girl, mum and dad would be proud of me. Although it hasn’t been an easy ride.. I still look into this picture – those deep brown eyes.
“The day I gave birth and how sure I was that she would survive. My grieving process was made difficult because of the toxicity I was in, and I can now see why it took me a while to process her loss.
“Life isn’t always smooth – in fact we all know it can be very far from.. but we need to do what’s best for ourselves. Our own mental health is a priority – and I will do anything now to make sure my mind is on form.
“If you’re suffering, still in pain, grieving – start putting yourself first & begin the healing journey that you should be on.
“Remove anyone that stands in the way of being your true authentic self & make yourself a priority. Nobody else will. Longing for you to be in my arms little one.. until we meet again. 23/12/18-22/01/19 @sandscharity.”
The MailOnline claims Malin has since left the UK to spend time in Dubai and to collect her thoughts.
In a further update, Malin revealed she is keeping optimistic for the future, sharing snaps of herself in a swimsuit in the sunshine, writing: “And she bounces back each time. Standing tall and finding gratitude in everything she faces.
“Everything will be ok in the end; if it’s not ok, it’s not the end…”
Malin has also shared a podcast for fans and those struggling to cope with grief online – with an episode called Grief at Christmas from her Battles Podcast.
Addressing her trip she also told fans: “Travelling on my own. To get away, be on my own. Fast forward Consy’s birthday, Christmas and pray for a nicer year x.”