Gail Porter has told of her devastation at the loss of her ex boyfriend Keith Flint saying: “It’s not been the easiest year”.
The Prodigy rocker, who took his own life aged 49 in March, dated Gail for a year after being introduced by DJ Sara Cox in 1999.
Following his death, Gail told her fans she was “heartbroken.”
Speaking this week, she admits 2019 has been a “tricky year” but insists you have to remember the “good times”.
Gail, 48, said: “It’s not been the easiest year, it’s been a tricky old year but you get on with it and you remember all the good times. That’s all you can do really.”
Firestarter singer Keith’s funeral was attended by a string of celebs culminating in a firework display.
But Gail did not attend – insisting she wanted to pay her respects privately.
She said: “I didn’t go to Keith’s funeral. I knew it was going to be a big party and thought I would stay away and show my respects in my own way.”
Back in 2008, Gail said: “He was lovely and gentle and oh I still am so fond of him.”
Keith had battled depression as he overcame a painful split from his wife Mayumi Kai. They married five years after he split from Gail.
Following a challenging year, Gail is working with rehab centre The Cabin and it’s new flagship rehabilitation programme Rise – a gender responsive trauma programme exclusively for women and run by women.
The Cabin is located close to Chiang Mai, Thailand with Rise being uniquely placed to help women to seek recovery from intimacy disorders and addiction.
Their structured 10-week residential treatment programme combines Western treatment methods with Eastern practices and philosophies, including Art Therapy, Mindfulness, Restorative Yoga, and Somatic Experiencing Therapy.
Gail was first treated at The Cabin in 2011.
But after years campaigning as a mental health activist she was invited back as an ambassador to experience some of the therapies offered to clients in the newly launched programme.
The treatments include a Trauma Release Exercise session, Muay Thai boxing, an “Expressive Arts” session and a psycho-educational session on EMDR.
She said: “I was introduced to The Cabin when I wasn’t having the bet time and it was great.
“I was there for anxiety and depression but they do anything from alcohol counselling to drug counselling.
“There is exercise, there are groups where you can listen to people’s stories, there is art therapy which you can spend drawing or painting.
“Exercise helps loads, that’s my thing that I do anyway when I am stressed.
“They give you after care and counselling and keep in touch with you just to see how you are getting on. Whichever your problem is, you will be given someone to talk to. It is very important. I went to a couple of places before and once you come out there is no after care. You think ‘hang on a minute, what do I do now?’
Gail works alongside mental health charity Mind and the Samaritans and she is also currently filming a mental health documentary for the BBC.
Her second book is due out next year and explores drug addiction, the loss of her mum aged 60 to cancer and her subsequent time in rehab.
Talking about her anxiety battle, she adds: “It comes and goes. Sometimes it will just hit me when I’m on the tube and I’ll have to get of.
“But I’ve learnt to deal with it, I do a lot of cycling. Or running. As long as you keep yourself active and know that there is always someone to talk too.”
Gail shot to fame on hit breakfast TV shows Live & Kicking and The Big Breakfast. In the 1990s she posed for a photo for FHM, which was projected on to the Houses of Parliament.
But she insists her 17-year-old daughter Honey won’t be following her into showbusiness.
She said: “She is not interested. She’s more into maths and science. She’s very clever.”
Gail previously told how her daughter helped her come to terms with being bald after she was diagnosed with alopecia.
She added: “I have good days and bad days but I’m not really bothered about the hair to be honest. I’m so used to it now.”
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